Ch 25
“Aria, if you could go back in time, what choice would you make?”
Of course, I would go back to before the car accident and not go to the bank. If I had lunch during that time and went to get my savings the next day, I could have avoided the accident.
“I don’t know.”
For a moment, Aria almost spilled everything inside her because Killian’s eyes were so affectionate.
I shouldn’t be honest. If he goes back, it will be like it never happened.
I shouldn’t let my guard down and get close to him. He would have a weakness that could kill me at any time. I should just get along well enough to make it as if nothing happened.
Because that’s who he was in the original story.
If she were the real Princess Aria, she could have stood against him, but she wasn’t the real Aria.
“So, you don’t want to say.”
After all, it seemed like she would have to go to the territory if he regained his memories and returned to his place. That way, she could live as she wanted and not be forced into a villain role between the main characters.
“I’m sorry.”
After that, the conversation didn’t continue for a while. Killian let Aria down, and Aria just smiled bitterly without speaking first.
The two walked in silence for a long time, going so far that it felt like they had entered the very center of a maze. Then, they saw something like stairs leading underground.
Come to think of it, it didn’t seem like the place where the Crown Prince was imprisoned in the original story was the basement of the main building.
“What could this be?”
“Let’s go inside.”
It looks dark inside, but why does he keep going somewhere without fear?
I want to tell him to go alone, but if I do that…
“Are you scared?”
“Ugh… yes.”
Aria was embarrassed that she was seen through so quickly, but it was okay since she had already shown him a lot of embarrassing behavior earlier because of the hawk. She thought it was too late to pretend to be okay.
“Then I’ll go alone.”
“No. Let’s go together.”
It would be a problem if Killian got hurt more. And there probably isn’t anything special inside.
“I have to protect Killian-nim. It’s our mansion, after all.”
Then, Killian chuckled, as if he found something funny, and took her hand.
“Yes, you’re really reliable.”
What is this? Was that a sarcastic remark just now?
Still, Aria wasn’t angry because he smiled. Rather, it was strange how she ended up smiling back at his pretty smile.
Besides, she knew all too well, to the point that it was etched in her bones, that she wasn’t in a position to assert anything to him.
Then, as they went down the underground stairs again, the lights started to turn on sequentially. She was so fascinated by it that she didn’t realize she had grabbed Killian’s hand tightly. So, she tried to let go.
“Why are you trying to let go?”
“I, I think I was holding on too tight!”
“I would like it if you held on tighter.”
Aria’s shoulder brushed against his arm every time they walked, and Killian’s large body was really sturdy. Aria somehow knew about the muscular arm under these clothes.
“Then Killian might get hurt.”
“If it’s Aria Young Lady hurting me, I don’t think that would be so bad.”
“Th, that kind of, that kind of bad thing…!”
“What is bad about it?”
The torch was flickering, and his smile was flickering along with it, making Aria feel like the tension she was holding in was about to burst out. Aria felt him gradually gripping her hand tighter. It was like he was trying to eliminate all the gaps in her hand.
It didn’t hurt, but she felt scared because it felt like he was completely blocking her escape route.
“That’s strange.”
“What is?”
“I held your hand because I thought you might be anxious, but I don’t know why you’re trembling more.”
Ah, that’s right. He did that because he thought I was scared.
Maybe Killian is also scared. Come to think of it, there were many signs that he was afraid. Losing his memories, relying on his kidnapper, and so on.
This person must be afraid too.
I’m the one who needs to pull myself together.
Aria said, thinking that way.
“Was I? I’m sorry. I should be protecting you, but I’m so scared…”
“Young Lady is very fearful.”
“Yes.”
“So, you’re trying to protect me even though you’re scared.”
Aria watched Killian smile with a dangerous look again. If you looked closely, it was a very innocent smile, but Aria, knowing what kind of person he was, was able to come back from almost being swayed.
“Let’s go down further.”
Aria didn’t stop him as he moved a little ahead. Inside, there was an underground space as big as a maze. It was quite deep, and it was decorated with various sculptures like a temple.
“What kind of place is this?”
“Um… actually, I don’t know either.”
Aria felt like fear was about to rise again as the hand she was holding was turning into a clasp, but she held it back.
Killian must be more scared than her. He came here because he wants to find his memories.
She was the main culprit who made him lose his memories.
It was easy to understand why he was trying to rely on his kidnapper without thinking deeply. He must be really scared. So she shouldn’t be scared. Then Killian would be even more scared.
“But if we walk around inside, Killian will remember something again!”
“Last time when I came nearby, I remembered something about my parents.”
“Ah… so that’s why you were talking about that earlier.”
“Yes.”
He stopped for a moment, and Aria unknowingly stepped forward. So when she turned around, he was frowning.
“Are you okay, Killian?”
“My head hurts.”
Aria stood in front of him and looked up. He was frowning as if in pain. Then, when he made eye contact with her, she saw him trying to smile. His eyes were wet with pity.
Aria’s heart felt strange because Killian looked like he was really having a hard time.
“I think I’ll feel better if Aria Young Lady hugs me.”
“Ah… can you really get better with that?”
“Yes. I think it’s because I’m anxious right now. I think I’ll calm down if Young Lady hugs me.”
At first, she couldn’t understand what he meant, but she understood when he said he was anxious. She had been helped when she received comfort in a similar way when she went to a haunted house before.
“Okay.”
Aria let go of his hand and hugged him. Then, he crouched his large body and hugged her tightly, making her feel like she was about to fall backward.
She gently patted his back so that Killian could calm down. His labored breathing was tickling Aria’s ears.
“Hug me tighter.”
“H-huk, Killian-nim…”
Killian said that and then hugged her even tighter, making it hard for Aria to breathe.
“Aria.”
Hearing him call her without the title, she was reminded of the black-hearted mastermind from the original story, who was full of coldness.
She felt even more sorry for him.
“Killian-nim. It’s okay. I’ll be by your side.”
“Really?”
“Yes. I’ll be by your side until you get all your memories back and can safely return.”
“What about your fiancé?”
Why is Lionell suddenly being brought up…?
But it wasn’t the kind of atmosphere where she could tell him to mind his own business.
“I’m not engaged yet. He’s just saying that on his own.”
“Then you’re not going to get engaged?”
“Yes.”
“Didn’t you say you liked him?”
“I did, but now I don’t at all, good… huk!”
His grip tightened even more, making it hard for Aria to continue speaking. As if he was telling her to stop, she stopped talking. Then, the strength of his hug loosened again.
“Does a liking heart get sorted out that easily? Aria Young Lady?”
“It wasn’t easy. But how much effort did I put in during that time.”
Of course, it was the original Aria who put in the effort. It’s hard to say whether the effort of trying to kidnap him dozens of times should be considered effort, but…
Still, in the book I read, she was so desperate that even though she knew there was another female lead, it was so pitiful that I thought she was wavering.
“So, did your heart cool down because of the things that didn’t work out despite your efforts?”
“Uh… is that so?”
“If it were me, I would never hurt Aria Young Lady’s heart.”
I guess so. Since you’re hurting my body right now?
“Then am I closer to Aria Young Lady than him?”
“Yes. Killian-nim is the closest to me. Bell isn’t here right now, so…?”
“I see. So, I’m the closest when that maid isn’t around.”
“Ah, that’s not it! When Bell comes back, no, even when she comes back, you’ll still be the closest to me, Killian-nim!”
Aria was flustered and quickly continued her words. Even though the mastermind was docile now, he might harm Bell later when he regained his memories.
The fact that I have to treat him with utmost sincerity hasn’t changed.
And it would be even better if I could give him trust.
“Is that so?”
“Yes, so don’t worry!”
Killian let go of her and smiled seductively. Her heart was pounding like crazy, whether it was because of fear or his handsome face, but it was definitely because she was scared.
The perfect face that was reflected when the flames flickered in the darkness.
“Shall we go on?”
“Okay. Please hold my hand again.”
“Ah, yes.”
They continued to go down, down, down. When they were about to reach the end of the stairs, only a small space remained. There, a white, fluffy thing was curled up in a ball.
“What is that?”
It didn’t seem dangerous, so Aria stepped in front of Killian and approached first. Then, the curled-up thing twitched, and it was gradually unfolding its body.
The white fur ball was so cute that she tried to take a closer look.
But she shouldn’t have done such a foolish thing. It gradually started to grow bigger, and then it stood in front of her, as big as a bed.
It soon transformed into the shape of a wolf and sparkled with pure white eyes, and the atmosphere was ominous.
“Aria.”
Killian was surprised when the wolf spoke and pulled Aria’s arm. It seemed dangerous for him too.
She died in her previous life at an unwanted place at an unwanted time.
Killian, who was also unwillingly kidnapped and doesn’t remember anything, shouldn’t die so unfairly here.
Maybe it was because of that thought, but she unknowingly blocked the white wolf that was rushing towards Killian.
“Aria!”
At that moment, the spots on his and Aria’s wrists glowed.