Ch 18
“Did you receive a proposal?”
“Ah, yes. They said he came with a proposal letter.”
The bright red rose that Lionell had brought was still on the sofa. Aria unknowingly glanced at it before looking back at Killian. His expression had turned as cold as the Antarctic during an ice age.
“Duke?”
“Didn’t you agree to call me Killian?”
At Killian’s cold tone, Aria quickly picked up a piece of meat and put it in her mouth. He sighed and accepted it, which felt like a relief. Her heart was pounding as if it were melting.
“Killian, you need to eat well to recover quickly.”
I can’t live because I’m so scared. Please get better quickly and disappear!
Aria desperately wished, forcing a smile.
“Do you want me to recover quickly?”
“Yes.”
“Why? Do you want me to leave?”
Why is he asking such an obvious question?
“Um…….”
Aria was about to say no to his hurt tone, but stopped herself, realizing that she shouldn’t.
“You kidnapped me, and now that I’m no longer useful, you want me to disappear.”
“What? No!”
“Then why do you want me to leave?”
Because I think you’re going to kill me!
But she didn’t have the courage to say that. He was a kind Killian now because he had lost his memory, but he was someone who might regain his memory at any time and play with her life.
If it were the Killian from the original story, he was someone who would do that and more.
“Because the Loenbert family will be looking for you?”
“Then if the Loenbert family doesn’t look for me, would it be better for you, Aria Young Lady, if I stayed here?”
There was no way the Loenbert family wouldn’t look for him. He was the Duke Loenbert, and his political rivals within the family were always trying to stab him in the back. And there was a strong faction among the Loenbert family elders that supported Killian.
“Still, I’d like you to go back.”
“…….”
His glaring expression was unusual, so Aria quickly added.
“If you regain your memories later, Killian, I think you’ll resent me.”
“…….”
“You’ve worked so hard to achieve so much, and it wouldn’t be right if I caused any setbacks!”
“…….”
“And! Your fiancée must be waiting for you anxiously!”
Of course, her last words were a lie. He was in the process of breaking off his engagement when Lionell was kidnapped, and by the time he was released, the engagement was completely broken off, and he and Melina were completely strangers. Now, she thought, they probably hadn’t completely broken off the engagement.
At the beginning of the original story, Melina was in the Le Hrehner barony. So she might not know that Killian is here yet.
Maybe a few days have passed, so she might have heard the news.
Even if Melina knew, she might not move. In the original story, at this point in time, she was also very uncomfortable with Killian. It took quite a long time for Killian to realize his feelings for Melina.
So, the possibility of Melina looking for Killian would be low, and wouldn’t that mean one less person who would notice my crime?
As Aria rolled her eyes and pondered again, Killian spoke first.
“Then if there are no setbacks to my plans and no one is waiting for me, it would be better for you, Aria Young Lady, if I stayed here.”
Aria, who had been briefly considering Melina’s possibilities, didn’t know what to say because Killian was being surprisingly stubborn, so she had to change the subject.
“First, eat all of this. I won’t feel good if you hurt yourself.”
As she said that, his expression softened, as if he had cheered up.
“Ugh.”
For a moment, Aria’s pinky finger lightly touched his lips, and he was feeling good again.
What am I going to do, really? How did I become such a hopeless person?
Aria had to swallow a sigh, thinking of herself as pathetic.
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“So, you’re saying we should take a walk so that I can regain my memories?”
“Yes.”
It was impossible to know how his memories would return, but it would be better for both Killian and me if they returned quickly.
It would be best to try something to help him remember something, like before.
“Then, I’d like to go there.”
He said, pointing to the maze in the Duke’s Estate.
That was the maze garden that was truly Aria Dolorein’s masterpiece. Originally, there was only a passage to the underground, but Aria added a maze to it.
The maze, with its walls made of plants, was very intricately designed, and it was designed to be difficult to get out of once you entered, like the labyrinth of the Minotaur.
Like a villain, she had this kind of hobby. Something even I had forgotten.
“It might be hard to get out if you go in there.”
Aria was indirectly saying that she didn’t want to go, but he smiled as if he didn’t understand at all.
“If I can’t find my way, I can just go up and look at the path.”
Was Killian originally such an active person? Or did he become curious because he lost his memory?
Aria felt somehow afraid and closed her mouth without realizing it.
“Are you scared?”
“Um…….”
“I think I’ll regain my memories if I go there.”
His smile made his bright red lips stand out even more.
Should the two of us go in there……? What if he suddenly comes to his senses and tries to kill me?
As Aria hesitated, he said.
“If it’s difficult for you, I’ll go alone.”
No, even if it’s a maze, it’s inside the Dolorein’s house. Maybe he really wants to go.
If he gets hurt even a little, I can pretend to be badly injured and make him owe me.
Then we’ll both have done something wrong, and I’ll have an excuse to make to him later.
Aria thought that way, trying hard to be positive, and then said as if she had made up her mind.
“Okay.”
Just get a little hurt!
“Would you prefer that I go alone?”
“No! Let’s go in together.”
At Aria’s words, he met her eyes with a smile that made her heart uneasy again. Her heart went cold once more. Aria was sure that her liver must have been tattered because of this person.
“It seems I’m also scared of going into the maze at night.”
“Right? Then next time…….”
“Please hold my hand.”
“Yes?”
Killian’s harmless face, slowly reaching out his hand, was visible. If Aria really didn’t know his true nature, she might have been deceived by that face and given him everything, including her liver and gallbladder.
“I sweat a lot in my hands.”
“It’s okay.”
Ah, I need to make another excuse.
“You might be uncomfortable with the smell.”
“It’s okay.”
It must be uncomfortable to have sweaty hands. Is he trying to hold me so I can’t run away? Is he really going to kill me inside?
“Wouldn’t it be uncomfortable if we held hands while walking?”
“It’s okay.”
Why is he so firm?
“Aria Young Lady, please protect me. This place belongs to you, Aria Young Lady, doesn’t it?”
“But wouldn’t you be scared?”
“It seems Aria is afraid of the night.”
Killian is the scariest, though.
But Aria wasn’t someone with enough guts to say that. So, she smiled innocently, forcing herself to answer.
“Yes…… Yes. Anyway, I’ll definitely, def-definitely protect you.”
Aria grabbed the hand he offered, planning to let go if necessary.
Again, touching him made her feel good. Like she had strength she didn’t have before. Perhaps because of that, Aria unknowingly intertwined her fingers and held his hand tighter. The more she did, the more it felt like a faint current was flowing through her body.
“It would be better if you got a little closer.”
“Wh-why?”
“It’ll be easier to move around that way.”
That seemed right, so Aria stayed close to him, holding his hand. They were close enough that their shoulders brushed every time they walked.
As they reached the entrance of the maze, he held her hand tightly and said.
“I’m excited. I wonder what will happen inside.”
“Haha…… Me too.”
As she touched him, Aria’s heart was pounding, whether from fear or from his excitement.
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In the original story, after escaping from the Dolorein Estate, Lionell displayed strange abilities. At first, he couldn’t use them properly, so he couldn’t heal his injured body.
Then, after receiving Melina’s devoted care, he manifested it and was able to use his healing abilities.
Strangely enough, in this world of the book, fantasy was the norm, but healers were very, very rare. So those who could use divine power were drafted regardless of their country and lived in the Holy Nation. No matter their origin.
“An owl is crying.”
“It is!”
The reason she kept trying to think about other things wasn’t just because she was scared. Killian’s meaningful smile was terrifying, and her heart was about to drop.
His hand was so cold that it felt like he was saying, “Even if you shake me off and run away, you’ll be caught,” so she wanted to escape reality.
“Please come a little closer. I have poor night vision.”
If he has poor night vision, wouldn’t it be better to stay in the room?
Aria couldn’t ask that. How could a kidnapper ask such a thing?
“Let’s go back quickly, okay?”
“Weren’t you hoping that my memories would return?”
“I do hope so.”
“After walking a bit, I think I might be about to remember something.”
Aria couldn’t tell if he was telling the truth. Above all, it was too dark to see his expression clearly. Nevertheless, his violet eyes were so clear that,
She was lost in staring at them as they sparkled like rubellites.
“Ah, this is.”
Aria was surprised and looked at him as he staggered and stopped. The moonlight was radiant, and under it, Killian’s expression, barely visible, was very bad.
“I’m dizzy.”
“Are you okay?”
“……No.”
When Aria stood in front of him and looked at him worriedly, he began to lean his head on her shoulder. The weight was less than she thought, but it was ticklish because his hair was touching her.
“Ah……!”
“I’m sorry. I’m very dizzy.”
She didn’t know if he was telling the truth, but she couldn’t coldly push away someone who was in pain. Anyway, she wasn’t in a position to do that now.
Aria had to stand still to avoid falling over as he put more and more weight on her.
“It’s okay, lean on me.”
As Aria patted his back with her free hands, a faint laugh brushed past her ear.
There’s no way he’d laugh in this situation.
It was definitely just my imagination.
“You are very kind, Young Lady.”
Those words sounded gentle, but she knew she shouldn’t be deceived by his praise. In the original story, he didn’t not kill people just because he praised them.
“You didn’t refuse to come out this late at night, you let me lean on you, and you’re even holding my hand.”
Aria wanted to fidget because it was ticklish as he rubbed his hair against her neck, and strange thoughts came to her mind. But she thought she shouldn’t have inappropriate thoughts about someone who was in pain, so she pulled herself together.
“It’s strange.”
“What is?”
“When I’m with Aria Young Lady, I feel like it’s okay even if I don’t regain my memories.”
Absolutely not. Please go back, Duke!
Or you can run away. If you run away, I’ll pretend I don’t remember, and if that doesn’t work, I’ll run away to the duchy and live there!
She let out a silent scream and tried to speak calmly.
“Still, I think it would be better for you to find your memories. There are many people waiting for you, Killian. There might be people who can’t even sleep because they’re worried.”
“Maybe it’s because I don’t have my memories, but I prefer it when Aria worries about me more than those people.”
Even though he lost his memories, is his intelligence still intact?
She couldn’t win a single argument.
Well, from Killian’s point of view, it’s only natural for him to be like this with me since he doesn’t have his memories. But it’s not normal to be attached to a kidnapper. But if I point out that it’s not normal, won’t he retaliate later?
I have to be careful with my words. Aria had no choice but to soothe him kindly, no matter what he wanted.
“So, don’t stay away from me, Aria Young Lady.”
Then he slowly lifted his head. As she looked at the violet eyes that met hers, it felt like time had stopped.