Chapter 14
Usually, when I said I was an orphan in my past life, people would generally sympathize. The reactions to perceived weaknesses are usually similar.
Will this person react similarly?
However, Yuri smiled brightly.
“Yes, I will follow your orders.”
I stared at her smile and nodded slightly.
Then, I quickly left the room.
Seeing someone smile at me like that, it’s quite something.
‘Well, I thought I was going to die yesterday. It’s a relief I didn’t.’
As I walked down the hallway, the reactions of the attendants and knights were similar.
But just knowing that there was one person who didn’t react the same way warmed my heart.
It was as if a cute flower had bloomed in my heart.
My steps were light.
“Haa, haa.”
When I arrived at the 3rd Training Ground after walking so quickly.
There was no one at the training ground.
…Huh?
Why is no one here?
I looked around the training ground with a bewildered face, then sharply raised my head.
The weather is very clear.
Why isn’t Roy here when it’s so clear?
He was a child who trained at this time every single day.
There’s no way he would suddenly skip it. Or maybe… is he sick?
No, why? I was the one who got rained on that day, and he used an umbrella, right?
For some reason, the baby cat that I had made a house for that day was also nowhere to be seen.
When I went to the tree where I had made the cat house, it wasn’t visible even in the hole.
I wandered around the 3rd Training Ground for a while.
Do I have to leave without seeing him?
…I wanted to ask if you really came to my room.
But if Roy Blackwinter wasn’t there, there was no reason for me to be here.
As I turned away from the 3rd Training Ground, my steps were filled with regret.
It was around the time I had walked a little further.
Pitter-patter!
Just as the building came into view, I heard the pitter-patter of small footsteps.
I, who had been looking at the ground with unnecessary gloom, saw a large shadow stop in front of me.
I slowly raised my head.
“…You.”
There was a boy, two heads taller than me, breathing roughly.
It was Roy Blackwinter.
“Older Brother?”
“Why weren’t you, in your.”
“Huh?”
“Why weren’t you, in your room?”
“What?”
I questioned him, then stopped my lips. Ah, could it be.
“Older Brother, did you come to my room?”
“……”
“When? Now? Are you coming from my room?”
Roy quickly hid one hand behind his back. But I had already seen it.
It was a pure white flower.
“I…”
“Older Brother, did you perhaps come to my room at night too?”
“……”
There was no answer, but I could tell it was a yes. I slowly raised my eyes.
I saw a neck that was completely red. It was originally a pure white neck.
Moreover, the face he was covering with the back of his hand was the same color as his neck.
“…Did you, just wake up?”
“Uh-huh.”
After answering, I felt an indescribable awkwardness.
No, is this what it feels like to be chosen by a stray cat?
It seemed like he was feeling even more awkward than I was.
“…Well, then it’s fine.”
Roy walked past me with large strides. I scratched my cheek, watching the boy’s back.
Hey, the white flower you hid behind your back is all visible.
Weren’t you trying to hide it by putting it behind you?
Without scratching, I followed his small back as if I were possessed.
It was obvious where Roy was going.
“Older Brother, Older Brother. Did you look at the textbook I gave you?”
“……”
“How was it? Was it easy to understand?”
“……”
“Did you eat today?”
There was no answer from my young older brother, who had his lips tightly shut like someone who had eaten honey.
But I could tell from the atmosphere. I followed behind him like a chick.
“…You’re too fast.”
Then, Roy’s pace slowed down. As if he was conscious of the person following behind him.
We walked in a line and arrived at the 3rd Training Ground.
Only then did Roy look back. His cheeks still had a blotchy red flush, but his face was better than before.
“…Are you, not sick anymore?”
“Well, maybe? I think I need to see the physician one more time.”
“Physician.”
Roy, who was repeating my words, slightly covered his face with the back of his hand.
The hand he had hidden behind his back was now in front of him. Looking at the white flower made one corner of my heart tickle.
I couldn’t help myself and grabbed his hand.
Roy was startled.
“Older Brother, thank you for coming.”
But he didn’t push my hand away like last time.
“It’s the first time someone has come to see me when I was sick.”
“…First time?”
“Yes. First time.”
“But.”
“Older Brother was the one who came, right?”
Roy hesitated as if he had a lot to say, then soon nodded.
I smiled brightly.
“Thank you.”
That’s enough for me. For now.
I let go of Roy’s hand. Naturally, the flower was in my hand.
“And you still don’t like seeing me, right? You even took the textbook without permission.”
“……”
“But, I really didn’t mean any harm.”
I looked at the flower and smiled even more brightly.
“Next time…”
“It’s okay.”
Roy blocked my path. I blinked.
“…Do, do as you please.”
“What do you mean?”
I looked down at the flower. Does he mean I can do as I please with this flower? It would be perfect in a vase.
“If it’s the flower, I’ll put it in a vase. Maybe my maid…”
“You can, you can keep it!”
“Huh?”
Only then did I look at Roy’s face. As soon as our eyes met.
Whirr!
I witnessed his face turning as red as his eye color.
…What is this?
Is he really the same person who was angry at me?
No, more than that, he looks different from the person I saw in the book?
I remembered his image of wielding his sword alone and his guarded appearance.
That was very fitting for the villain who would later be consumed by inferiority, rarely speak, and only eliminate people.
So I thought that was his personality.
‘Wait, he’s been stuttering a little more and more?’
I stared intently at Roy’s face.
Then, his hand, which had been wandering aimlessly, covered his face.
His face turned even redder.
Could it be that he had this kind of personality when he was young?
Where did the force you had when you pushed my hand away go?
No. If I think about it, he didn’t push my hand away then, but the book, right?
And I was the one who flew away because of that force.
Even so, there were still things I couldn’t understand.
“Hey, Older Brother.”
Oh, whatever. If I don’t know, I should ask the person involved!
“Why didn’t you answer me all this time? Because you didn’t want to hear me?”
“Th-th-that…”
“Older Brother, you should look at my eyes when you talk!”
“T-talk a little further away.”
“If you answer me.”
Then, the red eyes that had been spinning around finally turned towards me.
“Why didn’t you answer me? Was there a reason?”
“Th-that’s because, I, I stutter!”
“Ah. Ah?”
I was also flustered by the flustered answer that came out.
“But you didn’t stutter all the time, did you?”
“If I speak briefly…”
“Ah…”
The days when he had answered with short replies naturally came to mind.
“Ugh, okay… whatever.”
Was that what it was? For some reason, I felt drained.
So, was I so flustered by this young older brother who looks like a simpleton?
I felt my anger rising again, and I sat down on the spot.
Then, he seemed to be startled. I heard him even ask, ‘Are you, are you hurt?’ so I quickly got up, thinking he misunderstood.
Then, when I tried to step back, Roy stepped forward this time.
“Th-the hand!”
“Huh?”
“The hand…”
I turned my hand over. Is it this? Ah.
There was a small scratch on the back of my hand. It was a wound left when I fell after Roy pushed the book away.
“Th-the hand…”
“It’s okay. It’ll heal if I put saliva on it.”
“Why put saliva on it?”
“Kids don’t need to know.”
Roy tilted his head without taking his eyes off my hand.
“…Y-you’re younger. Th-then, does your hand not hurt?”
“Yeah. Not at all.”
Well, it seems like he’s only noticing it now. This change of attitude was like the difference between summer and winter.
If I think about it differently, maybe Older Brother was like this from the beginning, and I just didn’t notice.
Actually, I’ve never been interested in others enough to be confident that I can understand them well.
But even so, this is too much.
“…I thought it was a cat, but it was a black puppy.”
“What?”
“No, it’s nothing.”
Well, if you’ve seen this far, you’ll know. I felt a pleasant refreshment.
At this point, I’ve succeeded in getting on Third Older Brother’s good side, right? Me?
I quickly opened my mouth as if driving a wedge.
“Then, can I come visit you every day now?”
“Your body…”
“I’m already fine now. Can’t you tell by looking at me?”
I grabbed Roy’s hand with one hand and thumped my chest with the other.
“I’ll come today, and tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and the day after that. I’ll come.”
“…Even if you get closer to me, there’s no benefit for you.”
“I know. It’s the same for you, Older Brother.”
I squeezed the hand I was holding tightly.
“There’s nothing for you to gain by getting closer to me.”
No, actually, you’ll change. For me to live, and for you to live a more wonderful life.
“But if Older Brother, who has no one by his side, and I combine, there will be two of us.”
Let’s not walk the path of hating others and killing ourselves with inferiority.
“Older Brother, two people can do more than you think.”
When I smiled brightly, Roy stared at me for a long time.
Roy’s lips twitched, but they didn’t form a curve similar to mine.
Instead, his cheeks flushed even redder.
…Nod.
He nodded slightly.